Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in mhmyea's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
1:01 pm	<3 halloween. i wish it didnt take me so much effort to hear harmonies. but, im better at it than i used to be. and that makes me happy i guess. seeing that i never pursued music anyway. ____________________________________________ i could count the ppl who fuck w/my head, on my hand but isnt that still too many? maybe it Is me. _______________________________________ omg a normal message for ONCE on this thing: im making my leg warmers today!!!! $30 to my name + trip to walmart + WOOHOO HALLOWEEN COMING!! = my legwarmers, the process beginning. goodness gracious this is going to be a fucking HOT costume. (brushes shoulders off.) _________________________ btw wTF am i doing fri and sat nites? Current Mood: chipper Current Music: tegan and saraH (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 23rd, 2005
10:24 pm	megan and megan and me. We're gonna start a band, and you're gonna play the guitar- and im going to sing. better than ive ever sung before, bc i FEEL my music when im with you, bc i love you like whoa, and, we could be famous, i mean, if u want. =) sometimes i really hate the rain and sometimes i really hate what this is and what i am and what that means i wonder if id ever be able to calm down my add enough to write a song? it might be about Everything, all in one song, if i couldnt calm it... what is a best friend are they forever or right now is anything forever? define forever Right Now. if i care about you right now is that enough if i could move the world for you right now is that enough if its all there is it must be bc intensity can only be defined- moment by moment. as it changes, as it evolves This is right Now. This is me. my Heart. when i hug you, i feel safe. i FEEL love. when i dance w/u, i am away from everything i can't handle- i am Right There Right Now- in THat moment, you see my spirit, i am the core of who i am when ur there and, that is so refreShing... meliss you know u can call me if you need me. i'll come pick you up bc otherwise you'll never get out of bed- and buy you lunch b/c you're piss broke- fix your computer, and suprise u w/the pErfect song at the Perfect time- and help you determine if you "run about or climb excessively in situations in which it is inappropriate.." bc ur too distracted to Decide on your own- i make the BEST taylor ham sandwiches and i beat you up. i esp. like to make u hit yourself bc its so funny. im an ass. and make you hate me, at least once a day- but only enough to relaly make you realize what you have , in this and how thankful you are for it. (but when i say i hate you i DO mean it.) she's a shithead and you deserve better. you're sick? don't cry, i'll drive you home. (when i say i love you, i mean that too) whoever finds you will be SO LUCKY melissa people tell me that but i will worry about that when it rolls around... Right Now; my Plethora of Megans keep me sane- and have, the grand majority of my heart. its a Big heart ; ive been told, hope it serves you well. Current Mood: grateful Current Music: bonnie mckee, somebody (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 16th, 2005
2:52 pm	its a nice day. i have a cold. its as if breathing in today's air can dissipate all the phlegm in my throat. all the darkness floating around in my body. apple picking in september in the mud riding through the dormant fields towards the setting sun and the wind crisp and harsh against my face the new vest i bought on sale last year and muck boots up to my knees what is this where is this so much in between between here and there this and then what is this where is then ages. ages ago sweet melissa ______________________________________________________ i say a lot when i drink i say a lot i do a lot i Am a lot this isnt ok what is this what is okay define okay define definition my obsession w/definitions is only my obsession w/trying to understand myself and this. and it will be the root of my insanity. or is it, already? i am focused, driven by will power, and respectful of others' sexual orientation. but still know that i meant every word of what i said you drive me insane, that is. _____________________________________________________ and that sometimes you strike me with what you are and god help me not fall where i stand ____________________________________________________ and i dont care to think about what that means. ______________________________________________ she looked over at me, put on a 5 star smile- "i love you and i never ever want to be without you" except for those 4 months, i mean, of course. except for when you got royally fucked over and i was content to just watch. except for when you were all by yourself and needed me and i wouldnt even answer your calls. except for when, i finally let you realize, that i was never your sister at all. i was just playing a part. like i am right now. im not happy melissa. i'm depressed too. well isn't that unfortunate. join the fucking club. oh wait- the club requires commitment that isnt a joke. guess you'll have to deal with that on your own. Current Mood: sick Current Music: sean paul, we'll be burning (Comment on this)
Friday, October 14th, 2005
1:28 pm	rainy night miss has a blowdryer now my hairgoo has more Umph and that makes me happy unless its raining straight or crazy define crazy define straight, even crazy- coo-coo. is it clarified? she'll be very nice to you tho; and string you along. and make u melt when she walks through the door and make u so nervous, that you'd never be able to go talk to her, not for the 4 months you've known she exists. no matter how drunk. please now. what ever is the point of knowing what your 'type' is, when that just means its the woman so beauitful- you cant even be in the same room w/o a knot in your stomach. what good does that do someone. none. when its good its amazing. even my Daydreams of it being good, are amazing. in my daydreams she wouldn't string me along- no; in my daydreams, she's not crazy or straight. she's so intensely amazing. _________________________________________________________________ you're having concentration issues? you're gay? you're carrying 5 credits? you're behind on paying the parking tickets? you're post-due for your MMR? you're unemployed? you're broke? you're in debt? potential is such an ugly word. i am always 10 minutes early, over-prepared, and i always print out the directions. _____________________________________________________ i am not heart broken. i was strong enough. at least i'm not straight or crazy. _____________________________________________________ spend all night losing sleep id spend the night and id lose my mind... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: tegan & sarah, livingroom (Comment on this)